Its valentine's day today... well its 12.01am... HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!

hmmm.... i'm in a pretty blah mood.... tired and stressed out... yesterday I came to realise everyone's circumstances are framed by their social surroundings... that somehow disables people and forces people to conform to the circumstances whether or not they like it.... he was trying to sort out all the paperwork yesterday afternoon and this was one of the few times that I personally see him working very hard... and he told me that he has been trying his best too... I believe that things would change if you would take the first time to make the minor changes....

I do not blame him and I forgive him... and I do hope that he would have a bright future ahead... and I fully understand what he is going through because I was there going through the hard times with him till everything has taken a toll on me and him.... causing us to break down and tear each other apart....

Hopefully after cny, everything would be better and he would be happy... I wish for him to find his peace....

AND MAYBE THIS is my excuse for HIM so that I can forget about all the abuse I went through...